Här ute är allt verkligt... ansvar. jag hatar det. de bryter ner mig till grunden.

dricker min alldeles för många koppar kaffe och lyssnar på slipknot.

Det känns overkligt. Jag vill tillbaks tlll psyk...

Är ja störd som säger så..

Har inga piller kvar heller. knapra upp allihop igår..

yepp ja har stora problem.

inne på 7an e de frukost om 20 min...

man hade suttit och småpratat i soffan i väntan på att bara gå in och ta för sig av allt som är framdukat.

inte undra på att man går upp i vikt därinne...

10kg denna gången för min del

så nu lever ja på svält gränsen... kaffe å kesella... ev nån banan.. =P

överdosera lycia e inte så jävla lyckat.... men va gör man inte för att slippa vardagslivet....

kommer förmodligen bli lika idag, skillnaden är att systemet är öppet så de blir ett par öl oxå.

lyckat? not...

men så e de

2v idag... trodde ja skulle få bli släppt nu...

men icket.. tidigast ons, tors, pga min lilla flipp igår.

den tackar jag z för! as

begone

På 7D och försöker vara positiv...

personalen tyckte jag sovit bra för de blev 3h iaf.

förstår inte riktigt hur resonemanget går där.

här e det iaf pyntat... inte för att de spelar me någon roll egentlgen

men men

de e meds ändringar på g

sover ju ingenting längre... thats suck when u are like me.... slutar aldrig bra iaf

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Life acn be a struggle, but we all are heading towards the same destiny.

But no one can say when and where, it´s a spurice.

Youmay get very old, and still, you can die right after you´re beeing born.

Just wait and see, whats your desteny is.

It´s a suprice

They can fligh planes high up in the air.

Totally sureal.

They makes a landing and you comes out in another country.

You can cross the street in the wrong second, and there comes your suprice.

The meaning of life is jut to know, that you don´t know, a thing!?

About life!

It´s always gonna be a suprice.

We could figure out a A-bomb!

That destroys whole citys in on big bang.

But we can´t figure out how to really protect us from mosquitos.

Thous two has probebly killed the same amont of people.

One thing we build, one thing nature nutured to life.

How things can be a suprice.

WHY DOES WE MAKE THINGS TO DESTROY AND KILL?

When Mother Earth can do that for us, tsunamies, eartquaks!

Napalm, radioactivwaist.

Same shit, but so, so diffrent.

We makes cigarets and narcotiks, we make medicine and lifesuporting machines that help us keep folks alive after abusing something we have made.

It seem like it always is an opposite to everything!

The good and evil, the good, the bad the ugly.

That can be just one man.

And not ugly at sight, but ugly in mind.

You can´t tell from the start, who´s gonna be what.

Hitler vs Ghandi.

That just become that way.

Suprice

And a gen can give you terminal cancer, a gen can make you a genius.

A lifetime is like a lottery.

Everone is in the game.

You can win ore you can loos!

That is gonna be a suprice.

You can be born in the "right" contreys, you can be born in the "wrong".

I vs U.

You can have all you wish for in life.

And you can hae nothing.

thats just tradgic!

Suprice.

You can have manny natural talents.

And you can be handed nothing for free...

You can have Spencer Bell as your biggest idol.

And that poor guy died, off a hughe tumore.

Very young.

He was gifted with a musical gen.

But never got to explor life full out.

He got bouth a pricce in the lottery but the biggest lost.

I guess he´s just a tourist now, where eer he went after his deth.

Thats gonna be a suprice.

But if you thing nothing is gonna happend when you dies.

That you just gonna be gone.

ANd then when your time will come, and you fall asleep for the last time.

And you see, there, your all beloved deer and near.

Waiting for you.

Thats a happy suprice!

So if everything is a suprice, what should you expect?

I tell you the biggest cliché.

Expekt the unexpekted!

That is something you can´t do!

But you fucking have too.

Becous everything is gonna be a suprice in the future!

Oh well, he has really blown some fuces.

You just accept the psyic and fysic abuses.

Oh well, when you know it always will come.

Why not provoce it, soo it´s just done!

When words and punches don´t suprice you anymore.

Why not get the hell out of there and stoped been called a whore.

He has called you that soo may times you have lost the score.

And it getting harder and harder to take it anymore.

Babygirl!

Please leave, before it´s too late!

Your life is too short, for just sitting and wait.

To him, not to be a better man when he wokes up.

He´s never gonna think twice over what his done.

But babygirl, I promiss you this!

the punches will keep on comeing and soo will the hits!

Oh yes, this man is emotional instable.

You have seen it befor, time after time what he´s able.

You notice when his drinking, that he thinks he´s God himself.

But if God is this cruel, there can be no hell!

You wake up againe with a big bruce over your eye.

And your friends don´t ask anymore.

They don´t beleves the lies.

You have thought about leaving so many times, but the big problem is the money.

Oh please, babygirl before it´s too late, your life is too short for spend it on him, just going and wait!

For him too become a better man.

You hope he´s gonna wake up and realize what his done.

But babygirl I´ll promise you this!

The punches will keep on coming, and soo will the hits.

Well now it has gone to far, even his friends beginns too ask.

How can you beat up that girl?

You two share such a long past.

The draws hin away when they thinks it´s gone too far, but the furst hit is the one who scares.

They ask here, how can you stay when he does this too you?

She said,

- Well, you know, I think he loves me though.

Oh please, babygirl, just take typur shit and leave.

When he beats you continuasly, it´s probebly not to start a family.

Oh please babygirl, just take your stuff, leave and learn from this and grow.

Befor you will en up 6 feet under the ground!